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On June 23rd 2004 I decide to take a pregnancy test, after two years for trying I didn't think this test would be different
then any other test I took....That one line, all by it's self. When I looked down and saw those TWO lines, the lines I had
wanted to see for soooo long I RAN out of the bathroom screaming "I see two lines!!!" My husband replies "two
lions??? Where!!" And runs to get his shoes to save our dogs. I grab him and say "no no!! LINES!! We are pregnant!"
I hugged him and cried for a bit, I was excited and nervous, I knew from my research that two lines meant I was pregnant
but it didn't always that stay way.
I made my doc appointment and told them I didn't know when I got pregnant, which was the truth, I could have been
anywhere from 4-8 weeks depending on when I ovulated. They ordered an ultrasound so we could get a date! At the
u/s I had butterflies and was so scared. What felt like hours went by and then we saw it...I perfect little "peanut" and a
little heart beat!!!
The weeks went by, very uneventful, no morning sickness, no weight gain, no problems. It was prefect! I would feel little
kicks now and then, I had a nice glow and loved being pregnant. On 10/15/04 we have our "Big ultrasound" The
ultrasound
when we would find out "who" was in there. Again, after what felt like hours we final heard what we wanted to hear...
"It's a girl" With tears in my eyes I just couldn't believe it!!! I was going to have my princess and everything looked
perfect.
She measured 20 weeks and 4 days which was one day ahead!!!
At 24 weeks I started to notice less movement and figured she was growing, so she wasn't that active, at 25 weeks I
noticed I was starting to swell. I decided to take my blood pressure and to my surprise it was elevated! My pressure was
always 110/70 and it was fine at my last appointment. I called my doc right away and he told me to go to L & D for what I
thought would be a short visit. We listened to her heart, they took some blood and check my urine. We waited for the
doc, and he said they were going to keep me over night. I asked if I could go home and he said no, I needed to stay and
do a 24 hour urine collection. My uric acid in my blood was high and they were worried.
My 24 hour urine test came back at 642 and I was admitted to the hosp, I had Preeclampsia. After they ran more test
and did more u/s they decided to transfer me. They feared the baby would be coming early.
I got to the new hosp and stayed in L & D for a few days, then they moved me to an antinatal room and hoped that I
would be able to stay preggy for a little while longer. On my second night in that room they noticed decells in the babies
heart rate and moved me back to L & D. They ran some more blood work which showed my palates dropping, then my
blood pressure started rising even more. I was told them I needed to have a c-section ASAP.
My little princess was born on 11-25-04, Thanksgiving, around 4:30pm. I was SHOCKED to hear her cry. I didn't think
babies that little cried. She scored 8 out of 9 and then 9 out of 9, they said that would be very good for a full term, it was
amazing for a premmie. They let me see her before they took her off the in to the intensive care unit. She was beautiful!
Pink and perfect! She was breathing on her own and I thought everything would be fine. She only weighed 1 pound
and 5 oz and was 12 inches long, a bit small for a 26.5 weeker. She looked just like my husband, I thought for sure she
would have dark hair but she had his blonde hair. I was so happy to finally meet my baby, and prepared myself mentally
for having to go home with out my baby and the long trips to NICU. I was sure she would be okay.
Saturday morning (11-27-2005) at around 2:30 am they came to the room and said that words that no parent should
ever had to here... your baby took a turn of the worst. I was in SHOCK. I just looked at the nurse and said "Are you sure
it is our baby???" My husband had just check on her around 8 and she was breathing on her own and they said she was
doing very well. Luckily the nurses let him stay the night even though he wasn't supposed to, I could have never handled
the news on my own. I could hardly move since I had just had a c-section but I got up and got in a wheel chair.
My husband and I just sat and watched as they worked on her, we couldn't do anything. I was so numb I couldn't even
cry. My husband held her when she was taking her last few breathes, I just couldn't do it, I wanted him to have that time
with her. They did everything they could but we lost her. Once we got back to the room I cried for hours until I finally just
feel asleep.
I had the perfect pregnancy up to that point. I didn't even get morning sickness, I'm was only 25, I wouldn't take any
meds or even eat lunch meat because I was scared it would hurt my baby. All my u/s were perfect, I don't understand
what went wrong. For two years all I thought about was trying to get pregnant, and then once I was, I was scared to
death until I reached what I thought was a "safe point" (24 weeks).
Preeclampsia stole more then my baby from me, it stole our hopes and dreams, it almost took my life. I miss my
Veronica so much. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her, and think of what we would be doing is she was still here
with us.
As bad as this was, it could have been even worse, if you at anytime do not feel right during your pregnancy CALL
YOUR DOC!!!! If I would have waited until next appointment, which was only about a week away, I might not still be here.
Also, if you think you have pre-eclampsia make sure your doc runs tests (24 hour urine, liver/kidney funcation ect). I
was very lucky that my doc told me to go to L & D and ran the test for preeclampsia. Not all docs would have been that
proactive and I am very grateful mine was.
Veronica Rosina
Nov 25- Nov 27 2004
Forever and Always in our hearts
You will never be forgotten
